So Christmas has been pretty much canceled at my place this year. We're having the traditional dinner, but that's about it. No one has the money to give gifts...hell, we can't even afford to pay all our bills. I'm seriously thinking of taking the tree down tomorrow. It's just to depressing to look at.

My mother seems to be collecting medical bills like crazy and we just found out that her insurance didn't pay for her most recent surgery, so everything that had been bought had to be returned to pay for that. My car is costing me even more than her doctor bills, though. It cost me over $400 for new tires not even 3 months ago, now I've had to shell out another $800 to get the entire brake system fixed. Now the wiring for the internal lights has shorted out and has to be replaced. And on top of all that, it seems I picked up some dirty gas somewhere and it's affecting my engine. Gods only know what that's going to cost me in the long run.

There are people out there to whom I owe cards. I'm going to try to get them out, but I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to. I'm really sorry.

As if all this weren't bad enough, I can't seem to find anyone that's hiring even for part time help and willing to work around my school schedule. So no job for CJ. That means no spending money, little or no gas money, all that. Thankfully, my mom is still able to buy groceries and such or we'd all starve.

I can't wait until January when I get my student loan check so I can hopefully have enough to get something done about my bills. And I'm still hoping to put back enough out of that to have my vacation in the summer. I really don't want to cancel that.

/whine